The coffee tasted like sweet serendipity. The movements seem to stop all around me for a moment then so suddenly, it’s back again. So were the pain and problems.
I felt the commotion around me. I was just there - in the eye of a strong hurricane. I wanted to get out, but I was trapped.
I laid down, the tall grass covered me. I didn’t mind. I watched the sky and the birds flew and I realized that the birds were trapped with the same blue sky for years. And I wonder if some bird realized that.
It was one of those nights that I dreamt of you, forgetting that we ended whatever we had. The smiles and laughter that I wish were true, and the warmth that you gave as I held your hand. I wish it were real. I wish you were here. I wish there was still us, but all I could do was dream.
I am terrified of whatever is going to happen now. I’ve always been a coward in a lion mask, and I just don’t know where to go from here. I want to get there, but I am far from wherever there is. I will always be terrified, but it’s not going to stop me from going beyond my limits.